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What's going on with me now ?
Why am I the one who cry and cry and cry ?
Why I acted like this ?
Why I can't control myself ?
I just can't fall into sick!

Do you know ?
How hurt am I ?
ALL I NEED IS SAFENESS.
Can you give me ? Did you trying to give me ?!
These few days I wait for you until at night too.
Why are you online on the morning and don't even want to text me ?
Why are you treating me like this ?
WHY ?
Why you're there comforting others but you can't see I'm drowning because of you ?
I find so many reason for you.
Ya. That's it!
Morning, you're tired. You don't want to touch your phone right? Okay.
Yah. Noon d. You're about to work. So you're busying right ?
Evening. Working. Never Mind.
Night. You're very tired already ? Okay Okay.
So. We don't have time to talk ?
But why are you talking to others everyday ?!
I just Don't understand Why !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Now only I know.
The place you work are all girls.
Then how come you tell me you're going out with guys only ?
So you're going kl and those places with girls only ?
Now only I realised.
Not to mean that I don't trust you but why are you bluffing me ?

So what are you doing now again ?
I asked you not to text me not to find me anymore.
So you don't want to find me d right ?
Are you that stupid ?
When a girl angry don't you have to text her more than before ?
But you ? Don't even want to text ?
OR..
This is what you want ?
Just fine.
Okay. I just deal with you.
You act like you don't care so why should I ?

Is it that easy for you to fool me all around ?
Ow fine. YOU WON. Congrates.
Time for you !
Chan Wui Wen ! Kumoo~
You're really great ! De jin jia dum dum chuwane :D
Really relief when I talk to you and you just ask me to cry.
I know that's the only way to express my feeling but I just want to get my tears stop.
I like to talk to you. Really.
Aha :/ Never mind. I think I'm okay now.
By the way, your history story for sleeping works !
I didn't take medicine to sleep that day !
KAMSAMIDA CHINGU :D

And yet..
So many to get over :0
I need time.
I will make sure I will be happy this very soon !
Believe me :)

So Is time to give up !
I'm gonna change everything. Maybe.
In order to forget about these stuff.
Can I change the place I live ? I seriously need it.
But! I know I can't.
Arghhhh ~~~ So suen ba!
Just let it be.
This is what I can do. I think.
Does it work ? I don't know.
At least I tried.

Wish me luck babe ! :D
A day of missing you two ♥

DAD.
You know what ? I'm thinking of you when I'm in school.
Lat year, I'm wearing the same shirt and same jeans too.
But this year. I went home early than that day.
How I wish I can go home as soon as our practice ends.
But I didn't. I went for tuition.
I scare of this feeling when mama was late for today although is just fifteen minutes.
I scare the feeling of losing somebody in my life.
I really don't want this to happen anymore.

And so..

I found that I'm gonna lose someone.
I'm so stress for giving out by not receiving anything.
I don't like the feeling when I'm waiting just like today.
I've wait for whole morning until now. You don't even text me.
So ? Never mind. Again. Never mind.
How many times should I say Never Mind ?
I'm tired.
Maybe for you, my job is wait and wait and wait and yours just let me wait. Is it like this ?
Sigh ! How long I have to wait this time ?
I don't reserved this !
If there's no love between us, let's just stop.
Let this end as soon as well.
I'm using everything to make my mind not thinking of you.
It's hard seriously. I wonder what am I doing sometimes.
But I will stop at that second. Stop for thinking.
Once I think. You'll come out and I just can't control myself.
And once again.

NEVER MIND :)

Am I so so so stupid ? I guess..
YEA. I AM A STUPID GIRL.

What's going on with me ?
I'm trying my very best not to think about anything ! But why can't I ?
I cry for don't know what reason.
Day times, I'm alright. Totally okay when I'm at school doing work, rushing here and there.
When the sky turns dark, my mood starts to get into a hell.
I cry and cry and cry and cry but I don't know why !

Is it because of you? Abuji.
You know I miss you a lot ?
Until now I can't accept the truth.
I can feel you by my side every time when I'm alone thinking of you.
Do you know? How I wish that was just a dream.
Can I hug you ? I really miss your shoulder. Very badly.
I can't talk much with mummy. I can't do anything to help her get through every thing.
I'm JUST A GIRL !
What can I do ? What can I do ?
Tell me ! Since you're the one who broke your promises !
Please tell me how to get over all of these.
I really don't know how..

Or You ?
When I'm crying, my heart was terriblely in pain.
I was thinking of you.
The second day I can't control my feelings.
I thought I can get through it by doing everything, getting everything done very well.
But when I think of you.
My heart breaks down. I can't even finish those easy Maths question although I've spent one whole day in it.
Evey thing went wrong.
Until now. I didn't talk to you.
You're blaming me right ? I know you would be.
You don't know how much I've been suffering for those dayss.
You just left me behind and don't even want to look at me !
What have you done for me ?
I'm the one who waiting you for day and day night and night !
I can't sleep. I can't eat. I can't even want to walk into my house !
Do you know that ?
I care a lot about you. I really miss you.
But what I get is tears and tears and tears.
I don't need anything. I just want an explanation. You owe me for many times.
When I think of this. I'm really sad. Really sum tam d.
I really wanted to ask you. Do you remember what's the date we be together ?
I guess You've already forget about it.
SO What do you aspect from me ?

Huu ! Praying hard to get over this ! : D
What's wrong with you ? Evelyn Tng!
Can't you just wake up from that DREAM.
I don't know.
The only thing I can do is keep everything deep inside my heart.
Nobody can listen for me and I'm not really willing to say everything out if there's someone.
I just don't get it. How can people can be such irresponsible ?
Why ? Why ? Why ?

You know ? I never angry before as long as now.
I don't understand.
Is it too for you to get me know about your information ?
Is it hard to text a good night for me ?
Your words are all empty after one day.
That's you right ?
I can never talked to you for one whole day and you never text me.
Why should I find you first if you're busy ?
And you asked me why don't I find you ?
Hey man.
I scare feeling disappointed. Terribely scare ! You don't know ?
Never mind. When it's Saturday and Sunday ?
So whatcha doing there ?
Going here and there again. Okay.

Just for your information !
I hate to wait to worry and I got nothing about you.
I hate waiting for whole night and I'm crying for those night.
I hate when everybody knows and I'm the only one who know nothing.
I hate for suffering.
I don't like to being alone.
Every time I don't have mood to eat when bad things come all around me.
Why should I be doing all this. But..
So what ? Who cares ?

I think.. It means nothing for you.
every words you said seems so meaningless for me.
Not the first time.
So. Do whatever you like.
I can't stand for this kind of life.
We are not acted like we should be.