Friday, March 11, 2011 ♥Friday, March 11, 2011
What's going on with me ?
I'm trying my very best not to think about anything ! But why can't I ?
I cry for don't know what reason.
Day times, I'm alright. Totally okay when I'm at school doing work, rushing here and there.
When the sky turns dark, my mood starts to get into a hell.
I cry and cry and cry and cry but I don't know why !
Is it because of you? Abuji.
You know I miss you a lot ?
Until now I can't accept the truth.
I can feel you by my side every time when I'm alone thinking of you.
Do you know? How I wish that was just a dream.
Can I hug you ? I really miss your shoulder. Very badly.
I can't talk much with mummy. I can't do anything to help her get through every thing.
I'm JUST A GIRL !
What can I do ? What can I do ?
Tell me ! Since you're the one who broke your promises !
Please tell me how to get over all of these.
I really don't know how..
Or You ?
When I'm crying, my heart was terriblely in pain.
I was thinking of you.
The second day I can't control my feelings.
I thought I can get through it by doing everything, getting everything done very well.
But when I think of you.
My heart breaks down. I can't even finish those easy Maths question although I've spent one whole day in it.
Evey thing went wrong.
Until now. I didn't talk to you.
You're blaming me right ? I know you would be.
You don't know how much I've been suffering for those dayss.
You just left me behind and don't even want to look at me !
What have you done for me ?
I'm the one who waiting you for day and day night and night !
I can't sleep. I can't eat. I can't even want to walk into my house !
Do you know that ?
I care a lot about you. I really miss you.
But what I get is tears and tears and tears.
I don't need anything. I just want an explanation. You owe me for many times.
When I think of this. I'm really sad. Really sum tam d.
I really wanted to ask you. Do you remember what's the date we be together ?
I guess You've already forget about it.
SO What do you aspect from me ?
Huu ! Praying hard to get over this ! : D
When I see you, the world.
It stops and all that exists for me, is you and my eyes staring at you.
There's nothing else.
No noise, no other people, no thoughts or worries, no yesterday, no tomorrow.
The world just stops and it's a beautiful place and there's only you.
Just you. And my eyes staring at you.
When you're gone, the world starts again and I don't like it as much.
I can live in it, but I don't like it.
I just walk around in it, and wait to see you again and wait for it to stop again.
I love it when it stops.
It's the best thing I've ever known or ever felt, the best thing, and that, is why I stare at you.