Friday, March 11, 2011 ♥Friday, March 11, 2011
A day of missing you two ♥
DAD.
You know what ? I'm thinking of you when I'm in school.
Lat year, I'm wearing the same shirt and same jeans too.
But this year. I went home early than that day.
How I wish I can go home as soon as our practice ends.
But I didn't. I went for tuition.
I scare of this feeling when mama was late for today although is just fifteen minutes.
I scare the feeling of losing somebody in my life.
I really don't want this to happen anymore.
And so..
I found that I'm gonna lose someone.
I'm so stress for giving out by not receiving anything.
I don't like the feeling when I'm waiting just like today.
I've wait for whole morning until now. You don't even text me.
So ? Never mind. Again. Never mind.
How many times should I say Never Mind ?
I'm tired.
Maybe for you, my job is wait and wait and wait and yours just let me wait. Is it like this ?
Sigh ! How long I have to wait this time ?
I don't reserved this !
If there's no love between us, let's just stop.
Let this end as soon as well.
I'm using everything to make my mind not thinking of you.
It's hard seriously. I wonder what am I doing sometimes.
But I will stop at that second. Stop for thinking.
Once I think. You'll come out and I just can't control myself.
And once again.
NEVER MIND :)
Am I so so so stupid ? I guess..
YEA. I AM A STUPID GIRL.
When I see you, the world.
It stops and all that exists for me, is you and my eyes staring at you.
There's nothing else.
No noise, no other people, no thoughts or worries, no yesterday, no tomorrow.
The world just stops and it's a beautiful place and there's only you.
Just you. And my eyes staring at you.
When you're gone, the world starts again and I don't like it as much.
I can live in it, but I don't like it.
I just walk around in it, and wait to see you again and wait for it to stop again.
I love it when it stops.
It's the best thing I've ever known or ever felt, the best thing, and that, is why I stare at you.