Thursday, March 29, 2012 ♥Thursday, March 29, 2012
29th 0f March 2012
This is the second week you went back to Australia.
Many things and changes happened between us.
Hang up our call very unconsciously tonight.
It's like everything is going to an end.
This is what I felt after you went back.
I don't know why. Is it so hard to understand both of us?
It is not enough. I seem like still not really know you.
And I wonder how and why? What's wrong with that gap?
STUDIES.
Is it like what you said?
I'm over clever to think at your position?
Does that mean I have known that YOU totally wrong seriously?
What do you want? What am I going to do?
If we are so different, does that mean we are coming to an end?
Why are you telling me that sentence?
I was like.. WHAT ? Fine.
Nevermind. That doesn't matters.
What matters is how are we going to continue our journey?
I'm afraid of losing.. I mean you.
But if I could have a chance to study outside, I will fight for it.
I have my family relationship to care too.
They are as important as you do.
I don't want to let go anyone of you.
This is the position I'm standing. Could some one understand it?
Frankly, I'm a bit lost when I talk to you.
Don't know where to start and continue.
I can't even trace what's inside your heart.
And I feel so bad. Really. Extremely bad. SAD CASE. :(
Mama, I miss you lots. I really miss you a lot.
How I wish we could talk like this everyday at home.
But.. I'm still not feel like going home.. I don't know why.
I'm scared. Scare of this kind of peace talking ways is coming to an end again.
How scary it would be when I'm lock in house.
I don't like it. Not at all.....
I hope a simple prayer really works. And when I believe, it may be true.
Expect the unexpected, and be ready for change!
The Law of attraction, you inspired me! :)
When I see you, the world.
It stops and all that exists for me, is you and my eyes staring at you.
There's nothing else.
No noise, no other people, no thoughts or worries, no yesterday, no tomorrow.
The world just stops and it's a beautiful place and there's only you.
Just you. And my eyes staring at you.
When you're gone, the world starts again and I don't like it as much.
I can live in it, but I don't like it.
I just walk around in it, and wait to see you again and wait for it to stop again.
I love it when it stops.
It's the best thing I've ever known or ever felt, the best thing, and that, is why I stare at you.