Sunday, February 16, 2014 ♥Sunday, February 16, 2014
I'm not perfect, I'm a human.
I made mistakes, cause I ain't perfect.
I have feelings as others do.
I can hold on to things that I thought I couldn't.
I can give all the things which are precious to me.
But, I couldn't give up on a person.
No matter who they are, how much they meant for me.
That feeling of losing someone in your life forever.
I knew it from the bottom of my heart.
I scare of losing people, no matter how they are.
All I know is that we are all human and we need to be true to our own feelings.
I can fight for things which are impossible to me or anyone.
Life ain't that long, once you lost it, you will never get it back.
So what's wrong with me?
Am I able to accept that I lost my legs due to an accident?
If I don't, thank God they are save.Thank God I'm breathing.
I'm only human, I bleed when I hurt.
I hurt when things are meant to be hurting me deeply or even a little bit.
My heart felt it, every single sense gets into my nerve.
I wished I didn't lost myself but I do.
I miss that sunny little girl, without worries everyday.
Only with happy go lucky mood.
I'm only human, every single thing that I went through, I'll need time for myself.
I thought that I'd give myself enough time for my heart to be healed from everything.
But, people won't stop leaving. The feeling of wanting to die only gets stronger.
And I really don't know what is the point holding on my life.
Sometimes, I scare of dying but the little voice inside my heart will appear.
Keep reminding myself my life is not going to be long, still..
I wonder, what if there'll be someone who will miss me?
My life, my experiences, my on going days,
I'm only human, strengthen my heart, send me courage.
Be hold of whom who stays in my heart.
I don't want to lose anyone anymore...
For all the things in the past, if I would be gone in an early age,
I apologize for all my mistakes and to all the friends that I've lost..
I thought that we are friends forever once.
When I see you, the world.
It stops and all that exists for me, is you and my eyes staring at you.
There's nothing else.
No noise, no other people, no thoughts or worries, no yesterday, no tomorrow.
The world just stops and it's a beautiful place and there's only you.
Just you. And my eyes staring at you.
When you're gone, the world starts again and I don't like it as much.
I can live in it, but I don't like it.
I just walk around in it, and wait to see you again and wait for it to stop again.
I love it when it stops.
It's the best thing I've ever known or ever felt, the best thing, and that, is why I stare at you.