Tuesday, October 13, 2015 ♥Tuesday, October 13, 2015
Don't come back to me.
This year has been too much for me to go through.
Within myself, if I've beat you down,
I won't let you come back again.
But, Idk if you are still hanging around here.
Maybe you are.
Tearing my heart again and again.
And,
every single time,
I hope I am glad that I didn't lose it.
I hope I am happy that I go through it.
I hope I am good that breathing like now.
Don't come back to me.
I hear your calling.
I feel your presence in my heart
and it makes me hard to breath
I don't want to live like this.
I have a lot of things to chase after.
Although I might not know what are they
But yeah, I am going to start hoping.
Hoping to get a good future.
Hoping to have a good career, good partner, good family.
I am sure I have a long way to go.
This is not the end.
C'mon,
I know you are able to go through this.
I know you have grown stronger than before.
And it means you can handle more things than ever.
Don't rush, don't lose anything,
even when there's only darkness now.
Only in darkness, lights show.
When I see you, the world.
It stops and all that exists for me, is you and my eyes staring at you.
There's nothing else.
No noise, no other people, no thoughts or worries, no yesterday, no tomorrow.
The world just stops and it's a beautiful place and there's only you.
Just you. And my eyes staring at you.
When you're gone, the world starts again and I don't like it as much.
I can live in it, but I don't like it.
I just walk around in it, and wait to see you again and wait for it to stop again.
I love it when it stops.
It's the best thing I've ever known or ever felt, the best thing, and that, is why I stare at you.