♥ SIMPLICITY ♥

Tuesday, October 13, 2015 ♥Tuesday, October 13, 2015

Don't come back to me.

This year has been too much for me to go through.
Within myself, if I've beat you down,
I won't let you come back again.
But, Idk if you are still hanging around here.
Maybe you are.
Tearing my heart again and again.

And,
every single time,
I hope I am glad that I didn't lose it.
I hope I am happy that I go through it.
I hope I am good that breathing like now.

Don't come back to me.
I hear your calling.
I feel your presence in my heart
and it makes me hard to breath
I don't want to live like this.

I have a lot of things to chase after.
Although I might not know what are they
But yeah, I am going to start hoping.
Hoping to get a good future.
Hoping to have a good career, good partner, good family.
I am sure I have a long way to go.
This is not the end.

C'mon,
I know you are able to go through this.
I know you have grown stronger than before.
And it means you can handle more things than ever.
Don't rush, don't lose anything,
even when there's only darkness now.

Only in darkness, lights show.

Saturday, August 23, 2014 ♥Saturday, August 23, 2014

New semester in a week time.
My semester break has come to an end soon.
Aww..
What a great one month break.
I didn't waste it.
Passed two investment papers & worked.
Still practicing guitar and singing. Hmmph.
Only one thing that I can't make it true,
practice my drums and make myself a good drummer.

Had a very great time with my little sister.
As always, my greatest companion.
She could talk non-stop and she has unlimited stories.
Talking through phones every night is never enough for her.
And when I am home, get ready for not having any silence time.
That's her, cutie pie of mine. <3 font="">

Uni is good but I really wish to have a better environment by the time I go back.
Urhh, the air is so dirty and the places are so dangerous.
Noises everywhere whether is day time or night time.
I wonder how my Uni looks like now.
Anyways, people that I know over there are nice.
I met new friends few months back and have been together in the same class for the past two sems.
They are really really good people.

When there are hard times or unhappy times,
thanks to them that I could end my day happily.
They are people that I am thankful and grateful for.
We might not be really really close,
but when exam is near, assignment is close,
they are always there, keep reminding me to study,
to teach me when I wasn't in class for lecture.
They are... Friends who don't compete with you, friends who stay true to you,
friends who will always be there for you. Friends who play jokes but not tricks with you.
Friends who scold you for not attending classes and yet send you tons of tips,
friends who sent you answers when you are not there for tutorials.
Friends who remember you even when you are not around.
That's why I like them so much.

Have been so busy with the Gala Night, Winter Wonderland.
So happyyyyyy that it was a successful event.
I couldn't imagine it to be better.
Well, HELP Business Students Committee (BSC) New Board.
I've become a Secretary. Hahaha
I wonder if it suits me because of my character.
So... These are the people who are in this big family with me. :)

And, this is me for the night, 21st June 2014.

A memorable and an awesome night :D

Light purple dress with light make up & waterfall curly hair.

Haha, and here, is a girl who was a secretary before me. Winnie.

People used to say we have the same style and both of us believe in GOD. <3 font="" nbsp="">

Us, for the night. Same dressing style and hair style!

Opps! Not forgetting my BIG DAY ! 20th Birthday! Hehehe.

Thought that I can only celebrate my birthday with all my friends.

But, mummy changed plan to come over KL early!

So yeah! I got to celebrate my birthday with my family and Uncle Kenny's family.

Tiramisu cake. Always, my favorite.

AND !!! A beach birthday celebration has finally came true.

We went to a beach together and there it is, my dream came trueeeeeeee.

He celebrated my birthday earlier than everyone else.

Thank you for the cute fruit cake and the present !!

I love them so much.

Dear, I was surprised that you sang the birthday song to me when I was recording the video.

I'll keep them and save all your wishes to me in my heart.

U, keep learning to do things that makes me happy.

We might fight over small things, but it's okay.

I like the way we are right now.

Sweet and silence, at the same time, noisy and cute.

Sunday, February 16, 2014 ♥Sunday, February 16, 2014

I'm not perfect, I'm a human.

I made mistakes, cause I ain't perfect.

I have feelings as others do.

I can hold on to things that I thought I couldn't.

I can give all the things which are precious to me.

But, I couldn't give up on a person.

No matter who they are, how much they meant for me.

That feeling of losing someone in your life forever.

I knew it from the bottom of my heart.

I scare of losing people, no matter how they are.

All I know is that we are all human and we need to be true to our own feelings.

I can fight for things which are impossible to me or anyone.

Life ain't that long, once you lost it, you will never get it back.

So what's wrong with me?

Am I able to accept that I lost my legs due to an accident?

If I don't, thank God they are save.Thank God I'm breathing.

I'm only human, I bleed when I hurt.

I hurt when things are meant to be hurting me deeply or even a little bit.

My heart felt it, every single sense gets into my nerve.

I wished I didn't lost myself but I do.

I miss that sunny little girl, without worries everyday.

Only with happy go lucky mood.

I'm only human, every single thing that I went through, I'll need time for myself.

I thought that I'd give myself enough time for my heart to be healed from everything.

But, people won't stop leaving. The feeling of wanting to die only gets stronger.

And I really don't know what is the point holding on my life.

Sometimes, I scare of dying but the little voice inside my heart will appear.

Keep reminding myself my life is not going to be long, still..

I wonder, what if there'll be someone who will miss me?

My life, my experiences, my on going days,

I'm only human, strengthen my heart, send me courage.

Be hold of whom who stays in my heart.

I don't want to lose anyone anymore...

For all the things in the past, if I would be gone in an early age,

I apologize for all my mistakes and to all the friends that I've lost..

I thought that we are friends forever once.

Tuesday, June 4, 2013 ♥Tuesday, June 04, 2013

Memories about my Foundation Studies.

Everything is not so perfect as life does not offer anything which is perfect.

Last day staying in Nilai University is quite okay.

I am happy to have my friends to be with me on that day.

Especially that two nursing friends, everything gets better when both of you exist.

Grateful to see you guys on the day I leave.

Because we had tight hugs, and awesome last speech for each other! :P

My result makes me surprise!!!

Couldn't imagine that I get that kind of good results.

At least, it is good for me and my mother <3 div="" nbsp="">

Hmm, one of the things to remember is my English lecturer.

She is a damn nice lady and the first lecturer that I tell her honestly that I am leaving.

Guess what is her respond?

She said, GOOD !

Woww, I was like how can this be?

She continued, it means that your horizon is getting wider, it is a good thing for you. ;)

And an advise to me, STUDY HARD. Don't study smart.

Another people to remember. My boyfie.

Now I realized, a man accompany in my living area is so good.

Too much to say and too much to remember, so I'll keep all these in my heart.

He is a precious person in my life and I think I hope to have him like forever.

Stuff about New environment.

HAHA. Everything starts with a laugh will actually get things better?

Okay, I am now staying in a damn good place. And is damn expensive!

I feel so guilty to stay at this kind of place. So so so guilty. :(

People are way nicer over here.

Though they are good, they are nice, but they talk about branded stuff every time.

It somehow makes me feel awkward.

I don't used to this kind of life. I don't like it either.

I feel so uncomfortable in this place.

So so uncomfortable. Walking out to buy stuff, running over the road.

Oowww, so many things to learn and do.

I am scared and nervous!!!

Tomorrow is my orientation and I have not decide to go or to skip.

Let's see.

Message from God. I went to see and check it out.

Dear Evelyn, you haven't opened all your gifts yet.

Your life can be deeper than the ocean, larger than the sky and richer than all the minerals in the earth. You have so much potential. Do everything you dream of. Keep discovering yourself.

I WILL TRY AND TRY AND TRY ! TRY HARDER ! EVELYN FIGHTING ! ;O

Friday, March 29, 2013 ♥Friday, March 29, 2013

BLOG. IM BACK !! ;)

After one year, I am here now.

It's unbelievable but I just feel like updating my blog.

How have I been for this whole year?

HAHA. In conclusion.. Luckily I am alive ^^

April 2012 was a busy month for applying scholarships.

Went back to school for anything related to my interviews took most of my time.

May 2012. Month to Nilai University.

Well, that feeling seeing mummy spent so much money on me is bad.

Sometimes, it's worst.

So.. I am late to New Uni for a week time.

I got a roommate when I am here. A perfectly nice one.

Haha. She brought me to new friends and tell me everything during Orientation week.

Things were going smoothly all these while.

June 2012. First semester of studies is not that busy but quite okay for me.

So we always hang out like "da huo er" to eat to study to chat and to play.

Every night we will stay in common until we are tired then only we went back to sleep.

So nice to have you guys as friends. Those moments were perfect whenever we are together.

July 2012. You came back. Well. We quarreled a lot and you are afraid of losing so..

You are back and studying in this Uni with me :)

This action is out of a sudden, out of our plans, out of my mind.

Hmm, thank you so much for my birthday.

The flame, the cake, the trip and everything.

Last minute planning was not that bad.

Just wanted to tell you, I love the fire that burns when you light up the candles.

Although they are not supposed to be like that, but it's nice.

Hmm, friendship is changing and I am accepting also.

Haha. People turned weird and weird?

If you were that fake at first, I'll never wanted to know you.

If you are angel, just remember a devil is used to be an angel before.

Don't make yourself staying in hell darling, you are not a child anymore.

If there are misunderstandings, you shouldn't expect and just settle them.

Nothing much to say about this matter, it's within the law of attraction between us that is beyond my control.

August & September 2012.

Health and studies at stake.

I went to hospital for times in a week.

Lastly, staying in hospital for days.

Done some checking and result was not good.

So, until now, I am having medical check out every time when I am home.

Poor mummy and my darling, worry about me all the time.

And of course, those feiii who know my situation. Crazy friends I have. Appreciate :)

October-December 2012. Second semester of my Foundation Studies.

I am alone and having some lonely time.

Things weren't that good all these days.

Back to home every time to have my body check again and again.

I am tired.

Studies are unbearable and time is tight.

Hoho. But I manage to do it every time.

Okay, they meet my expectations and I guess I have good relationship with my lecturers.

I love to ask them questions because they'll definitely answer my curious.

Owh ya! I have been chosen to Future Leadership Camp!

It is a big surprise for me!! Had a great time with all the leaders.

We learned, we played, we stayed together for three days two nights!

Besides, I went for ACCA Camp.

That camp is nice and fun, but there is too less time for us to know new friends. :(

In addition, some people add those bad flavorings to my life.

Quarrel, fight, shout, hatred. Everything comes at once.

I hate him a lot during these time. If you were wanted to be alone then just go ahead.

I hate to be with a boring people and irresponsible people.

Luckily I have all those friends, they appear whenever I need them.

Fei possss, thank you for everything ♡

Finally it's 2013.

Everything back to normal.

Mummy is great and I love the way she is.

I love to stay at home rather than going out.

I miss home more than anything.

I miss my mummy all the time.

Here comes the last semester of my Foundation Studies.

Searching for new universities, targeted Swinburn University, Inti International University and Help University.

This semester is tough! Damn busy!

In average, I only sleep for five days in a week.

So sad and you know, the happiest thing I can do everyday is to sleep.

Homeworksss kill! Assignments and tests take my life away! I AM REALLY SAD.

New friends come around and I am not that lonely.

Boy friend turned better and worst. Mood unstable.

We are not that sweet and close anymore.

In fact, he tuned lazy and dumby.

Now, 30th March 2013.

I have time to update my blog.

I have feeling to run away from homeworks and assignments.

I miss home again and I wanted to go home.

Now, at this moment.

I realized how important is my mummy to me.

I know how to fight for myself and how to keep silent when I have to.

I learned to appreciate the great things in my life.

I gained tons of new friends because of losing those so called as best friends before.

Oh ya! I have become an idol for them to talk about whenever they have time.

I have ideas that people would steal away and use it publicly.

I gained heart to heart talk friends too. Hehe ♡

A last, I am worth to live.

My life is surrounded with mature thinking people.

Everytime when I talk something stupid, they will teach me.

Everytime when I am facing trouble, they will help me.

I ain't a little girl anymore, my life is not for only one thing in life.

After all these days, I know the reasons for my heart is beating.

There are tons of stuff I have to do and I must do.

And all I must have Is to LOVE EVERYONE IN MY LIFE.

My sweetheart mummy, lovely, sisters, dear darling and his family, pretty fei pos, caring and funny friends.

Just everyone else who are nice in my life.

Thank you for making who I am today.

Thank you for staying by my side no matter what we have met before.

Most of all, thank you for giving your little part of love in your life to me! ♡

And those who bad mouthed me.

Thank you for letting me know that my life is awesome than yours that you are envy for who I am.

Just remember to appreciate your life until now.

Remember one thing Evelyn. As you always know.

It's a miracle for you to live.

There is no easy going life for you.

Every breath you take in, God might took it away like before.

Every sickness you have, God might give you again in your life.

Every steps you take, they are never easy.

Since from a foetus until a nineteen-year-old girl.

♡

Thursday, March 29, 2012 ♥Thursday, March 29, 2012

29th 0f March 2012
This is the second week you went back to Australia.
Many things and changes happened between us.
Hang up our call very unconsciously tonight.
It's like everything is going to an end.
This is what I felt after you went back.
I don't know why. Is it so hard to understand both of us?
It is not enough. I seem like still not really know you.
And I wonder how and why? What's wrong with that gap?

STUDIES.
Is it like what you said?
I'm over clever to think at your position?
Does that mean I have known that YOU totally wrong seriously?
What do you want? What am I going to do?
If we are so different, does that mean we are coming to an end?
Why are you telling me that sentence?
I was like.. WHAT ? Fine.

Nevermind. That doesn't matters.
What matters is how are we going to continue our journey?
I'm afraid of losing.. I mean you.
But if I could have a chance to study outside, I will fight for it.
I have my family relationship to care too.
They are as important as you do.
I don't want to let go anyone of you.
This is the position I'm standing. Could some one understand it?

Frankly, I'm a bit lost when I talk to you.
Don't know where to start and continue.
I can't even trace what's inside your heart.
And I feel so bad. Really. Extremely bad. SAD CASE. :(

Mama, I miss you lots. I really miss you a lot.
How I wish we could talk like this everyday at home.
But.. I'm still not feel like going home.. I don't know why.
I'm scared. Scare of this kind of peace talking ways is coming to an end again.
How scary it would be when I'm lock in house.
I don't like it. Not at all.....

I hope a simple prayer really works. And when I believe, it may be true.
Expect the unexpected, and be ready for change!
The Law of attraction, you inspired me! :)

Wednesday, January 18, 2012 ♥Wednesday, January 18, 2012

我亲爱的回家了,

终于回到我的身边...

不是虚幻, 他确确实实在我身边 ;)

车上, 街上, 牵着我的手的伴是他

陪我用餐, 把食物夹给我的人也是他

一直站在身边的人是瑞伟你,

真的真的谢谢你没有离开我 <3

这几天的相处其实感觉不错,

能见到心爱的你,

真的真的真的很幸福 ;D

虽然没有多说什么,

可是我心里怎么想,

有着什么感觉,

我都很清楚 :O

虽然没有地方可以走, 可是看见你在身边..

其实在哪里都一样, 只要有你刘瑞伟 <3

只要你在身边, 平时很难做到的是都可以完成 !

可以像其他情侣到处去拍拖 ;P

这样很够了, 很满足了 ! ._.

有多少人会很安心？
如果别人没有恶意... 做朋友根本不是问题.
可是事实却不是这样,
曾经发生的事, 听过的话不是假的,
怎么能放心？能不担心么？
我做不到, 真的办不到;
离开我的人... 好多好多了
是至亲是好朋友是谁都好,
离开我身边的人很多了,
别说接受...
连看见这些事的勇气我都没有,

更何况是离我心里这么近的你？

不要我不要我死也不要

今天亲爱的语气明显的有点不耐烦,
真不敢想像我们只能信息的时候,
亲爱的你怎么忍受的？会很烦很烦吧 ==
是啊, 其实真的不是你的错..
不关你的事, 只关你以前的事;
不是现在, 现在的你是在我身边的瑞伟,
已经不一样了, 受到澳洲影响了, 呵呵 /;
不过还是傻傻的刘老先生, 老公公;
我超爱的男孩 <3

不是你的错也不是她的错,
只是时间还不够 ,
不该这么在意 ......
这些问题解不了, 也不是我能解的
那我不解不找答案了 :)
只能放宽心胸想了就过了
出口还没出现罢了,
其实没什么
多一份宽容不容易
可是少一份爱更难
相比起来或许我是幸福的
就把一切都交给时间

我们的爱情开始了,

坚持到这里了 ,

想你有多爱我,

我就得有多爱你.. <3

不该一味向你索求, 我该给的必须要更多,

每次说了什么想清楚才说的话都害怕没有回应,

当然想有个回答有份肯定..

可是这中恐惧是时候离开了

既然一开始豁出去了 ,

那现在每一步更要敢敢走下去就对了 ;)

有你在... 我怕什么 ?

没有你在？不可能的, 瑞伟答应我的 <3